day 2..

yesterday was day 1.. and today is day 2... yesterday i went dinner with friends..  i not happy.. still i try to smile.. :) hiding my pain? ahaha~ reach home.. i took out my phone without thinking.. i press your number wanted call you... i stop and think.. did i forgot? that we are over? did i? i went to my room and i saw Patrick... my tears are rolling down.. i hug my pillow and cry.. i dint think of anything.. but just wan cry.. i went out my house n sat beside the river.. i cried like mad... really cry like mad.. :) i call my close fren.. she only can hear me cry.. cry non stop... i know i shouldn't cry.. i have to be tough.. and thanks to the stupid car.. he came by and on some chinese love song (thats a sad song about breakup and stuff..) yea.. i cried louder.. :) i run i really run away~ at that moment.. i really wish that you are in front of me.. :) i know.. this days, weeks, months, or maybe years.. its gonna be hard for me.. yet.. i will try to move on :]