Hey babe.. If you read this ..

Hey babe,
It's been almost a year plus do you remember our promise? I miss you somehow.. I tried calling you and message you but there is no reply.. Do you really that hate me? Just wannna let you know that I miss you.. :) I should not say this but yes you are the only guy who hurt me n yet love me so deep...  Things chnange I guess... :) take care.. N I'll always love you...

its kinda too late?

its it kinda too late babe? to tell me how much u love me n wan me? y u dint wanna tell me early? y?

day 7...

its a week or more le.. im still trying to get use to my new life.. [Attitude & Personality are 2 different things. My personality stays with me wherever I am. My attitude depends on the people in front of me.] u posted this on ur twitter... i wan see the real you.. not treat me different?! you get it anot! its because of tour attitude... wan care dont wan care.. :'[  im gonna do a tattoo.. with half angel wing n half devil wing.. y? angel is you n devil is me.. this tattoo its my first n im gonna remember you.. :]

day 6 :]

i did nth ytd,, did not cry.. just a little heart broke.. thursday im gonna go genting.. i scare i will cry in the car.. cause.. i remember.. what we did there.. :] u know i know.. <3

updates on day 4 and 5..

day 4- i've been at home whole day... till my friend ask me out for a drink.. about 12am head home and sleep.. thats how my day 4 goes.. :)

Day 5- woke up at 3am.. cause i dream of you.. i jump up from my sleep and i tried to sleep back.. ended up every one hour i wake up once.. about 7am im totally awake.. i got ready waiting my friend and fetch me.. about 8.30am.. we start to head to kampung gajah.. :) we laugh non stop in the car.. we non stop talking.. non stop smoking.. yea.. i change.. i became a smoker.. :] and when i reach the track..all i was is thinking about you.. how i wish you are here with me and stuff.. :] all i think is about you babe.. if you know.. :]
at night.. i hardly sleep.. yumcha.. drinking smoking.. help me to release the pressure that i miss you.. i dunno i did a right thing anot.. by sms-ing you.. telling out how i feel and stuff.. after i tell out.. yea i feel better.. and way more better..knowing you came n gie back my things.. yea it hurts.... saying that we are best friend and stuff.. it hurts even more.. :[ i dint wanna be ur friend.. i still wanna be your Girl.. :'[ all i can do is cry deep inside me.. i cant let ppl know how sad am i.. i have to smile laugh n act like nth happen... its hard.. :'[

day 3...

day 3: ytd i went badminton.. funny.. i ran out of breath.. maybe i cried too much thats y? :)
about 11.30pm.. a old friend came and find me after know whats happening.. he bring me go n drink.. maybe im sad.. 2 bottle of hoegarden killed me.. :) and ya.. thats what i did for the day 3... today is day 4.. i think im gonna be at home.. cause tml im heading to ipoh for drift events.. :) Drift.. you teach me to love cars... i study n wanna know more about cars also because of you... :)

<3 karyn..

day 2..

yesterday was day 1.. and today is day 2... yesterday i went dinner with friends..  i not happy.. still i try to smile.. :) hiding my pain? ahaha~ reach home.. i took out my phone without thinking.. i press your number wanted call you... i stop and think.. did i forgot? that we are over? did i? i went to my room and i saw Patrick... my tears are rolling down.. i hug my pillow and cry.. i dint think of anything.. but just wan cry.. i went out my house n sat beside the river.. i cried like mad... really cry like mad.. :) i call my close fren.. she only can hear me cry.. cry non stop... i know i shouldn't cry.. i have to be tough.. and thanks to the stupid car.. he came by and on some chinese love song (thats a sad song about breakup and stuff..) yea.. i cried louder.. :) i run i really run away~ at that moment.. i really wish that you are in front of me.. :) i know.. this days, weeks, months, or maybe years.. its gonna be hard for me.. yet.. i will try to move on :]